Scanning The Future And Maybe The Past

Driving across the state at this time of year, the hills are dotted with color, white and pink blossoms and the soft green of spring. I left the turnpike around Carlisle, Pennsylvania and drove through small towns with remarkable names like Jim Thorpe and Zooks Corner and acre after acre of farmland, lush with early growth. The hillsides here are dotted with cows, sheep, horses, and the occasional goat. With my air conditioner issuing only an unenthusiastic whisper of warm-ish air, I’m relying on vintage, 4×65 air conditioning. It’s mostly effective, cooling, if also fragrant with the earthy smells of animals, not the least of which was the 18-wheeler filled with cattle, their large noses pressed through the grates like dogs hanging out the car window.

When I lived in Florida, my car didn’t have AC. I’d get in and, first thing, wind down the windows – yes, with a hand crank – before going anywhere. Even if I was driving the mile and a half to the Piggly Wiggly, the windows had to be down. It was so hot in the car that, no joke, my camera tripod handle warped and it wasn’t even in direct sunlight. The 4×65 air conditioning didn’t exactly work. The breezes were mostly warm, smelling of asphalt and fumes. My roommates laughed from their white, AC-equipped cars but I didn’t care. I was 20 years old and living the dream, as they say. 

Back then, I had only an AM radio but now I listen to audiobooks while I drive. This time it was Dragon Day by Bob Proehl, a fictional oral history by survivors of dragon attacks. It was immensely enjoyable, though its audible and goodreads reviews are rather middling. I joke – often – about reading books with dragon sex (yes, they exist), but I generally prefer my literary entertainments sans dragons. This, however, is worth a listen. 

My quarterly scans were this morning, scheduled early, allowing me to visit a favorite breakfast spot as a little post-scans celebration. The tests are a love/hate experience but the after-scans breakfast is a way to honor being here for another day, something I might not have except for that life-changing CT in December 2023. If this feels like a nudge, it is. YOU too probably need preventive care that you’ve been putting off. 

I’m writing this from another hospital, where I’ve spent my afternoon, acting as the patient support for someone getting their preventive colonoscopy. There was just a code O in obstetrics, which made me worry for strangers in the way one does at a hospital. As another patient once reminded me, very few of the people at a hospital are there for happy reasons but I always think of obstetrics as being one of the exceptions. Until that code O. 

An accordion-playing busker in Squirrel Hill has garnered much attention during his performances. He was good enough for me to cross the street to throw some cash into his open case. I’ve looked for him since and regret not asking his name. Buskers are frequent throughout the city but good buskers are rare. Years ago, there was a great singer, in our Oakland neighborhood, who could stop traffic. He busked in the late 80s, his voice deep and rich as he sang gospel, swaying to and fro on his flipped-over milk crate. I looked for him — a big, stooped-shouldered man with a tangle of black hair and dirty clothes — long after he stopped busking on the sidewalk near the McDonalds.

Much love.

Scanning The Future And Maybe The Past